The Nonexistent Future
After the bath, I leaned over the sink, my reflection fogged in the steamy air, and Googled, “hit leg hard hurts a lot,” “how to tell fracture,” “hit shin how to tell serious.” The answers varied, my questions were ultimately left unanswered. Later, I sat on a dining chair and delicately lifted my pajama pant leg to assess the damage. I had never felt such acute pain from a “minor” home injury. As I gently brushed two fingers over the surface where there laid an angry red line and felt a bump, I was overcome by the thought that everything in this life is so goddamn fleeting. I thought to myself, it’s such a terrible time to be injured. But when is it ever a good time? I’ve never broken a bone before, and despite my chronic clumsiness, I’ve never sustained serious injuries to my bones or the like. All this from a bath. I couldn’t believe that just yesterday I had never broken or fractured a bone and today…just like that. I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to think. I could panic my parents by asking them what they thought of the injury and risk getting reprimanded, or go to the hospital. As if on cue, thunder clapped outside. I finally decided against it, not wanting to concern them or cause any issues. As I slipped into my covers that night, I was troubled by the pain I felt in my shin from the slightest contact and anxious thoughts of the nonexistent future.
The next day and the following days, the pain did not get more severe and I presumed my injury was minor. No one ever found out. I suppose most things in life end up working themselves out similarly.
Jan. 7, 2023
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